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Three nights on melatonin were lovely, but I don’t want to be dependent on drugs to sleep. Well, four nights, though I only had three grams last night. I have to wait about a month and a half to hear … Continue reading

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Feel Alone.

Sometimes I don’t want to get better, I just want to close my eyes and have it all end, but then something small.will.remind me that tomorrow, or even today, could be interesting, could feel a bit better. I know I’m … Continue reading

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I’m sad today, because the future is scary. Ha ha. I’m scared because all my plans have derailed, at my hand, more or less. Well, the mental illness isn’t my fault, but now that I’m aware that I have an … Continue reading

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Rambling.

Okay so time to start living again. In a living room, with friends who are studying for a class I dropped. They are learning viel und viel, und ich werder doofer und doofer. Aber das ist nicht richtig. I believe … Continue reading

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Blogging from my phone! Very exciting. I am doing well. It is noticeable. It is good. Light is shining again, from me and from the world. Dreams are forming, hope is rebuilding. I no longer want to spend all my … Continue reading

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Lost again in the tide, struggling to swim. I’m detached from this world. Leave it? No. No. Home has become the faces of familiar webpages. This blog, Facebook, my email. Why is that? Unsure. I have left earth and am … Continue reading

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Gratitude. I’ve been hearing and seeing a lot about gratitude. I am grateful for many things. I am forgetting to remember them. I wonder how simple this all is, this healing business. How easy could it be? I already feel … Continue reading

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