I am dawning on sleep, my body aching from neglect. The blank page calls out to me as does the ocean to a sailor. I have been fighting this thing, this art thing. Fighting both to forget and to remember. Expression. I have grown so weary of the arrogance and pathetic qualities of the majority of artists I have met. Absolute fakes. The worst of us. But I should not disgrace the actual medium, the way of life that is art. Even if it is taking its last breaths, the death rattle as everything becomes commodified and drained of power. I must rebel. I must destroy. I must not fear being called arrogant myself. The voice that says I am just as weak and pathetic as these people I call them, that I am no different, why not prove myself wrong? There must be a test. A way to test the genuine and true. To separate it from the rest. If we can no longer tell the difference we are in trouble, and we are losing that sight. Revive.

I am weary of this spiritual solitude from kindred spirits. I am hungry to connect. To love again, the stage. Words. Breath. Acting. Literature. Colours of paint. The world. What have I forgotten?


About Undecided Pseudonym

A woman who remembers enjoying writing.
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2 Responses to Remembering

  1. Lisa Shaw says:

    I read this a few days ago and it has stuck with me since then. Being a writer is more challenging than most people can understand, right!? And, I’m with you–I find most writers to be so… well, arrogant and pathetic. I was nodding right along with you! Wow. I really like your writing. It’s so well crafted, with such vivid imagery. I especially liked the way you ended this: “What have I forgotten? Everything.” SO GOOD. I can’t wait to read more of your writing. I belong to this writer’s community which has been life-changing for me and I thought I’d just give you a heads up about it, in case you are looking to hang out with some other supportive bloggers who write. It’s called Yeah Write ( and they have all kinds of cool things going on, most notably a FREE weekly writing challenge (competition) for nonfiction, fiction, and poetry. It’s such a friendly and welcoming group filled with excellent writers who gently comment on one another’s work. Anyway, I sound like a commercial. LOL. Like I said, I’ll be eager to read more of your work. For now, Happy Holidays! 😀

    • Undecided Pseudonym says:

      Wow, I definitely need to get a hang of moderating my comments. Thank you very much for your support. I’ll check out Yeah Write. Best to you.

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