Monthly Archives: June 2013

Beetles and God.

I am unsure of how to entertain myself presently. There is a beetle stuck in a small crevasse by the balcony sliding door. It is struggling to no avail. I am unsure of how to help without squishing. Best leave … Continue reading

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Monsters Are Grumbling.

I do love blogging. And blogging loves me. Monsters are grumbling. Getting hungry. I’m not ready for them to wake up. I completely abandoned any efforts to shift my negative- no, that’s not true. I didn’t abandon my efforts, I … Continue reading

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On Fear.

Morning after, Slight struggle to keep them at bay, but at bay they are. It is 11. I have slept for about 12 hours, which is the norm these days. I was giddy before sleep. The sky is grey and … Continue reading

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The Monsters Inside Me Are Sleeping.

I found some lullaby singers. Sometimes you need someone to look you in the face and tell you they know you’re going to be fine. I feel full again. I am doing pirouettes, trying to do pirouettes, in the kitchen. … Continue reading

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Learning Peace

I am crumbling and collapsing and rebuilding moment to moment. I am breaking open. I am passing through fire. I am burning in ice. I am a statue, I am a whirlpool. This is a time of metamorphosis like none … Continue reading

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Each Day

Each day I shrivel more and more, and each day I am fortified by this wrinkled shell.

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Mania Ran Away, Boo Hoo

Mania is gone, she visited me only for a few days, it seemed. Depression is sliding back in. Take life one day at a time. One heavy day at a time. Back at home with the folks. Three weeks. Day … Continue reading

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Ill

I am exhausted. Be it from camping or prescriptions, who knows. A ¬†combination, I am sure. I saw mountains and lakes and trees, all beautiful. I am doing my best to live one day at a time. It is important, … Continue reading

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Tee-Hee Tatter Tat!

Hello, googles and guggles! Wiggles and wuggles! Welcome to mania, the flip side of bipolar depression. It’s a colourful place filled with lots of juicy, juicy moments of euphoria, creativity, and the uncanny. It’s still dangerous, as it’s intense and … Continue reading

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Wave.

A wave rushing towards land, never reaching it. I feel like this much of the time. It is, uncomfortable. 

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